Sometimes I’m not ‘ok’.
Sometimes it hurts so bad I wonder how I can get through another day.
Sometimes I feel so alone.
Sometimes I think I don’t belong on this planet, that I am just too ‘weird’ or ‘different’.
Sometimes I wonder if ‘he’ ever thinks about what he did to me.
Sometimes I wish I knew where ‘he’ was so I could scream at him and hit him.
Sometimes I cry myself to sleep.
Sometimes I have horrible panic attacks and I am sure I am going to die.
Sometimes I wonder if I will ever be completely ‘over’ this.
Sometimes I wish I could love myself just a little bit more.
Sometimes I wonder what it’s like to be the woman who was able to loose her virginity to a man who loved her and cared about her.
Sometimes I feel so much shame and disgust that I can’t even look at myself in a mirror.
To anyone who has been sexually abused as a child – let me know if you sometimes feel these things. And then – together – let’s remind each other that we can sometimes feel these things but that they do not need to be our ‘all the time’ feelings.