the ugly truth of what lurks inside

It was coming
It was bound to come
The ugliness seeking me out
It’s coldness surrounding me
My body so tired
Each limb heavy
Unable to move and yet
My heart is racing.
Out of control
my insides shake

I can not stop the fear
I resist the giving in
I push away the memory
It will not let me go this time
The hurt needs out
It ricochets inside of me
Bouncing from gut to brain to heart to lung
This pain, this sorrow

It wants to pull me under
It demands my attention
I scream in anger
Release me from the torment
Or at least let me cry
Let me succumb to the sad
Let the tears fall

Sobs bursting forth
Propelled by the force
Of my anger
My pain
My disbelief that such a thing
Such evil
can exist within
such beauty


3 thoughts on “the ugly truth of what lurks inside

  1. darkside54 says:

    Powerful writing Cynthia. It speaks volumes.

  2. wratwrds says:

    Your compelling words reverberate and stir. I know they strike a cord with many, many people.
    Thanks so much for sharing.


    Pam @writewrds

    • Cynthia says:

      Thank you so much for taking time to read and comment. That was a stream of consciousness one day…I’m glad I took time to write what I was feeling. And grateful that as ugly as those feelings were there are equal ones of beauty that burst forth from inside of me.

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